Somehow i already feel behind on my reading and tasks that i initially laid out for myself. I find myself up way too late pretty much every night...so if i seem lethargic it is because i don't sleep much, and if i seem cracked out it is because i am over caffeinating to compensate...not such a good idea. i think i need to crack down and alter my schedule.
one of the blogs i read made my inner philosopher start contemplating. i thought about my life up until now, and the good and the bad and the utterly horrible and the euphoricly stupid things i have done and experienced. none of it seems to matter to me much anymore. i feel so present in this time of my life. i no longer feel regret for the things i missed out on, and i don't feel like i screwed up so badly anymore.
i remind myself that i am extremely lucky in many ways, i may need a tattoo to force me to recall that often enough. i realize that quite often i get so caught up in the idea of succeeding in my ultimate goal that i miss out on the enjoyment that can be found along the way in the process of reaching that goal. sometimes it is the journey that turns out to be the whole point in the end, not the end itself...i may need a tattoo for that reminder too...what do you think, jess? do you have any ideas? draw me something pretty...
I am so glad that you feel so present in this time in your life. me too. it's an awesome way to feel.
ReplyDeleteand i think the tattoo is a good idea. Not visible, of course : ) we'll have to brainstorm ideas on that.....